And then I saw a fly. It made a few rounds inside my room and flew back out the window again. In my lifetime I have outlived thousands of generations of flies. I have a huge amount of time compared to this little fellow. How many generations of human beings were here before me? How many of them were lucky enough to reach their 24th birthday? The ground I'm walking on has been here for so long and it will be here for a very long time after I'm gone.
Suddenly there is enough time. There is enough time to do all the things that I want to do and so much more. There is enough time for me and everyone else. Enough time to breathe and eat and sleep and sing and talk and have fun, every single day for the rest of our lives. I walk towards the balcony to get some fresh air and as I take a deep breath, I feel relaxed, I feel like I should feel, like I should have felt before.
My schedule is wide open.